My Happiness

     Pretty much everyday since sophomore year I have been genuinely happy and could not stay sad for long periods of time whatsoever.  Obviously, I'm really blessed with a great education, supporting parents and family members, great friends, and a great church with Godly people I can rely on.  So in a sense, why shouldn't I be happy?

     I think that's what keeps me the way I am everyday.  Why should I be sad when I have the option to be happy?  I understand the emotions are not completely controllable but I personally feel that staying depressed is useless and should never happen unless something extremely traumatic happens in one's life.  In my childhood I did go through family issues and what not just like millions of other kids, but I just still managed to stay joyful all the time.  I still question to this day though, why am I so dang happy?  I understand I live with the attitude of "why shouldn't I be happy?".  However, I don't think this attitude itself is what keeps me completely together.

     I realized after awhile that it simply is my faith.  My faith in God as a Christian.  I definetely am not the example of a true Christian and feel shameful sometimes publicly calling myself one due to the way I act and speak to others.  I still truly believe though and it's just what keeps me going.  I'm just too thankful for what God has provided me and I just end up counting my blessings whenever I feel a hint of sadness in my heart.  I know I'm not a good example as a person overall but I am happy and content in life due to my faith.  I have been straying away from God recently but just writing this blog gave me a change in heart to seek him more and more.  Hopefully if you're reading and this you ever feel down, maybe counting your blessings or seeking to become stronger as a Christian or become a Christian helps.